The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else, which makes you unique. – Walt Disney
Over the years, I have learned that loving my own self is crucial in living life. There were times when I lost my own self-love and self-respect. It didn’t make anything getting better, on the contrary, it got worse. Because everything I did was a reflection of my emotion and my mind.
And I don’t like that.
So, “change” has been constantly reminded into my sub-conciousness to believe and most of all to love myself. When you love yourself, it is quite easy for others to fall in love with you. It’s so easy to make everyone around you happy. I had learnt it the hard way. Fortunately, it wasn’t too late. Though I’m on an on-going changing process, I started to feel good about myself already.
I have given me a chance to be happy, to recover my self-respect, and to LOVE myself.
Art Journal Caravan 2012: itenerary #12 / Wordogrpahy: Fantastical
I had signed up for the Art Journal Caravan 2012 with scrapbookgraphic.com. This is my first week. Also, after participating and signing up for a few different art journaling workshop/classes. This one is quite challenging.
I started to believe in art meditation. Expressing ourselves through poetry or meaningful beautiful words relieves us from the current stressful state of mind and redirect our focus on the art at hand. I’ll take it easy, a little bit at a time. This should heal my everyday stressful mind. I’ll learn to be more brave and more expressive of my mind.
This is a result of the Photoshop Friday Class (by Jessica Spraque). The template and the story in the lesson was “exactly” like what’s on my mind. A very coincidence but very true. I guess most parents think the same for their kids.
I didn’t use much of my own creativity as everything is pretty much what I had thought and felt at the moment. I was happy when Ploy wanted to try to read her favorite book, “The Secret Seven” series by Enid Blyton, in the original version. My kid only goes to a normal Thai school so she wasn’t keen on reading English book. I’ve been encourage her to read the story she likes in the original English version – for the sake of getting better at English. It’d probably be just a very normal thing for other parents whose kids go to fancy dual-launguage or international school, but it was a big step for my daughter.
No matter how small the matter is for other people, it is very big for me. I’m so PROUD of her.
Lately, I started to notice some changes in you. You are soon becoming a teenager. In a few years, my sweet little pumpkin will grow up into the most difficult period of your life (and probably mine too). Time has flown so fast. I just held you up playing “tick-tock” just to make you “giggle” – felt like it was just a few years ago. You’re turning 10 this year. Yes, I’m being paranoid. You’re still not in the teenager phase yet, but it’ll be here with a blink of an eye. I guess I’m just afraid what life has awaiting for me and you. But, being you and with your sweetness, I’m sure we’ll go through it beautifully together.
That’s my goal this year. Started off with a prompt from my digital art journaling class (by Jessica Spraque) “Goal & Desire,” I looked back a couple of months ago when I sat down with myself and thought about what 2012 should be for myself. I came down to just one word, “happy.”
I had looked back further through last year and the years earlier, and found that the “happiness” had been gradually faded away from my sub-concisousness. Being unhappy resulted in increased mood-swing personality. I have changed into a person that I don’t like. I was a very optimistic person before, and now is the contrary. I don’t like who I am now. I need to change it back before it becomes my real and permanent personality, which will then turn me into an unpleasant person to be with.
So, the goal is being happy. I hope that this will bring back all the goodness in me.
I pinned down my new year resolution to 4 things:
1. Act the way I want to feel
2. Take care of my body
3. Enjoy the process
4. Lighten up and Find happiness
And all these 4 resolutions have to be applied into 3 big parts of my life: My Life, My Family and My Work. It seems easy to follow these 4 rules but, think about it, within each one there are quite a few things I’ll have to do/change or start doing or stop doing. It’s the journey along the year for me. By the end of the year, I hope I can put the “check” on, if not all, as many of these resolutions as I possibly and happily can.
Another creative process to meditate, from the Expressive Art workshop. Starting off with picking one image that revokes my strong feeling. The image is supposed to help reveal my inner truth and get it expressed out in a creative way. Then, with the image selected, I wrote “I am….” . The instruction was to write spontaneously in a felt sense bodily way as if I am the image.
“The purpose of choosing only one image spontaneously is to allow the beginning intuitive revealings of your own inner truth. One simple image will tell you what is burbling under the surface of your day today. If you were to continue this practice for a long period, your multidimensional inner world would have room to express itself and your intuitive knowing would find it’s own metaphorical language.”- Shelly Klammer
So, this image stroke me as a plain and simple natural beauty. Sincere and pure. I am sort of like that, I think. I’m not gorgeously beautiful with big impact to the world. I don’t change the world, and will never be able to. I’m just a small part of it that, hopefully, be the part that makes this world a bit more pleasurable.
A creative meditation process. Starting off with expressing who I really am. I am just the ordinary girl. Plain ordinary. Nothing is so prominent of being ME. However, I am a quiet but fun-loving person. I believe I am kind … Continue reading →